I mostly thought that id manage fine with the 'being solo' part of the travel but, those who know me well will also know that id rather wing it than ask a stranger for help. Those that dont know me well think im Miss Confident, well yes i am with my friends and people i know, or if ive had a few too many vinos of course. Also ive never truly travelled alone, Tenerife was always to see Alys, and all the lother breaks ive taken outside the UK were with friends or on business etc.
Travelling half way across the world to a place youve never been ... alone.... well thats quite different.
Ive been here a week now and i have to reluctantly admit its been difficult, arriving, finding my way, talking to and being surrounded by total strangers, starting a new job and being 'the new girl' and spending time in my own company. Ive been feckin terrified.
I do consider myself so fortunate though, ive landed in a great hostel where the owners instantly became friends and welcomed my with open arms, it could have been so different!
As the days move on and the surroundings and people become more familiar and i learn to spend time in my own company without always feeling the need to be somewhere or do something its getting easier. I dont think ill ever be fully at ease, but then i wouldnt be throwing myself into this way of travelling if it didnt scare me a bit!
Im learning its ok to ask, its ok to get things wrong, nobody really cares about being wrong, only you! Chatting to people and finding out about them is fascinating and can be a real eye opener. Its ok to be the new girl in the new place doing new things. Maybe ill never be as confident as some people - i know for sure im one of lifes 'people pleasers' and thats fine this is me.
Alot of people think ive got balls doing this travel - let me tell you - i dont, i just have a need to explore, to step out there and see all the things that i can, to meets new people and to explore new surroundings and foods.
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